A CONFRONTATION AND A LOSS

so i had a small problem and said i was moody and frustrated about something and now i think i have pissed him off and made him very mad at me for something - i don't know what to do right now - i am so confused - i feel like i might have lost him now and i feel like i am going to cry - i have felt like it all day - i constantly have this feeling in my stomach that i'll never see him again and that he is going to tell me to fuck off when he sees me - but i just don't understand - i really didn't want anything bad - i was feeling bad about something - and when i told him he just told me he was crap and that he was nothing good at all - it didn't need that type of reaction - it didn't need any reaction - all it needed was a simple explenation - and instead i got a possible end - i don't want him to - i don't want him to leave me - i don't want him to go away - i want him to be with me forever - i want to wake up with him everyday like i was doing - yesterday and today - oh hell - this is the worst day i have had in a long time - i feel like i could be bad to myself later for what i have done today -