this side of paradise
i'm romantic - a sentimental person thinks things will last - a romantic person hopes against hope that they won't


Wednesday, December 25, 2002  

i spent christmas in the hospital today - it wsa pretty depressing - i hope i am never placed in such a situation as being in the hospital on such a holiday - it would be so sad - well i was ok - amidst the panic attack i had when i saw my grandmother with her feeding tube and central lines - i would normally have been fine - but since seeing my best friend with the same contraptions attached to her while she clinged to life - i just can't really stomach hospitals and the critical patients - it is just too much for me - but everything is becoming more stable for them - i think it will be better in a while - well a long while - but that is all we can wish for -

posted by Scott | 9:11 PM


Tuesday, December 24, 2002  

it is a strange thing to feel in love - it has a strange sort of feeling - starting in your head with thoughts - slowly moving throughout the rest of your body - like a ripple effect - it slowly puts your body under a spell - love - it hits you - you are in love - the sight of the person you know - it starts the ripple from your eyes to your toes - everything becoming woozie - the sights and smells of it all hightening - everything becoming more sensual - it is love - the feelings - they never fade over the day - it keeps with you - haunting you of what you are not doing - who you are not with - it is a mysterious chemical - easy to make addicts of its followers - i am an addict now - i am feeding upon the love -

posted by Scott | 11:43 AM


Wednesday, December 18, 2002  

i really like christina aguleras new video - it is very nice and sweet - very though provoking - the whole idea about the different kinds of people who are beautiful - the image of the two gay boys making out is powerful to say the least - how it just shows their faces - kissing - like everyone else in the world - it is beautiful - just happy and nice and carefree - i someday wish to be able to do that - to kiss someone - my love - outside - and not worry about it - not worry about people staring - the other images are great too - the anorexic girl - the racially mixed girl - the freckled girl - the skinny boy and the drag man - it is all so pretty - how they realize they are beautiful - and that they are all that matters - when the two guys kiss - there is such love in their eyes - they look to be in love - happy - i hope i will be someday -

posted by Scott | 12:31 PM
 

last night i experienced a small disaster - while i was working on my sociological theory paper - my laptop decided to die on me - frist the screen went a little nuts and then it just stopped working all togeather - it was very sad - luckly i saved my paper on a disk - and then unluckly that my other computer ate my disk - then i just about did cry - how was i ever to get this paper done from scratch again - well i staied up all night - but i got the whole paper done - at about seven this morning - so i am pretty happy about that - and truthfull - i actually think that it turned out very well - i think it is actually one of my better papers - pretty interesting - i also got to talk to the boy last night - it was really sweet - he was pretty supportive when i was having my mini break down about my paper - he is so cute - i can't wait to see him this weekend - we really had a good time over thanksgiving - and we have been talking alot - i really hope this isn't just a one time thing - but oh well - focus on the now - i can't wait to see him - it is going to be so much fun - oh i am so excited to see him - well i think i may go to sleep - i hav been up for 28 hours now -

posted by Scott | 12:09 PM
 

welcome to the beginning of the world according to me -

posted by Scott | 11:51 AM
old thought patterns
time to flee
a broken heart
a sad heart
a girl who wears glasses
l'autre jay
knitting factory
ree in the city
a life to own
sinister
belle & sebastian
the fifth layer of hell
mail delivery service
what to do when you get there
stolen souls
ghosts of the present are free ghosts of the present break hearts ghosts of the present in love
the relevance of the personage
"personality is a physical matter almost entirely; it lowers the people it acts on-i've seen it vanish in a long sickness. but while a personality is active, it overrides the 'next thing'. now a personage, on the other hand, gathers. he is never thought of apart from what he's done. he's a bar on which a thousand things have been hung-glittering things sometimes, as ours are, but he uses those things with a cold mentality back of them." - from this side of paradise by f.scott.fitzgerald